Do you know what I really, really want?
I want to feel like I belong somewhere. I want to have fiercely loyal friends, who would do anything for me, without me asking. Who know me so well that they can see right through my walls. Who can see when I'm sad and know exactly how to make me feel better. Who can see when I'm happy and be happy with me. Who give me purpose. To love, protect and cherish them. Forever. This is what I want. I want a big, fun gang. I want a circle of my own. People who know me and who I know perfectly. People I can depend on. I want to feel friendship like never before.
And I want to be in control. For once in my life, I want to feel like I can do anything I want and everything depends on me. Like people have to wait for me to make a decision. Like people need me there with them. Like they listen to me and value my opinion. Like they respect me. Like they don't doubt my authority or my power. Like they follow me and trust that I'm going to lead them right.
And, lastly, I want to feel radiant. To feel happy, confident, powerful. I want people to be fascinated by me when they see me. I want them to look at me and admire me. To notice me. To think about me. I want to be the best I can be. I want to be a role model, someone people can look up to.
I don't know what's gotten into me. I guess it's one of those times when I get this sudden burst of motivation. And I thought I'd share it with you, guys. Maybe it inspires you somehow.
Just Maddy xoxo